hawa

tuesday blues

2011-12-06T17:52:00.002+08:00

Im not sure of why but today is just another moody day. I dont feel like doing anything much. I just feel like venting out my feelings. I guess.. today is my PMS day. I can feel it badly. Please, I beg you PMS, do behave yourself, because you're affecting my whole life now. So please leave quickly if you can. I dont need you to come around and destroy my daily routine. :((

With <3,
Hawa

LOVE.LOVE.LOVE

2011-11-14T20:11:00.002+08:00

Woohoooooo. Like thousands of years not here only! heehee.
Alright testing testing. Assalamualaikum all.
I've got many updates I shall tell. Ups and downs. Happy and sad. Anger and disappointment.
Well, thats basically life aint it true?
Okay, where should i start? I think the major thing that has happened in my life..
I'm attached, Alhamdulilah, been 9 months. Not that long but still a reason for me to smile each time day in and day out. The main source of my happiness. Needless to say, I'm so happy. (:
Urm, to be honest, I'm not a good girlfriend YET, so been trying to improve on it. Eventually this is my first relationship anyway. heehee.
So, holiday starts, children ended their semester. The saddes part is for sure those K2s graduating to primary one. I hope for nothing but the best for them. (:
All right then, end it here for today. night lovelies. <3

:)

2010-11-13T20:55:00.002+08:00

its been real long la people.
Im here once again. :)
Okay since im super duper free with ntg to do, i'll just update this poor lil blog here.
There's been real Ups and Downs this few mths and I meant it.
But as well, Allah has never given up on me.
Constantly helping me to go through the obstacles.
Alright work is super tiring and fun at the same time.
Graduation Concert for them is done! :)
They did a good job and its a memorable moment for me to see them on the stage.
Everything is done, sch left with few more days and its kinda sad you know.
They will be moving on to next level and forget abt me soooooon. :(
But yea, I believe they will do me proud yo! heeee.
I cant wait for the hols! lets party everydayyyyyyyyyyy. :)
Goodnight world, lemme see ya in a brand new day tmr.

reflection through the day. :)

2010-06-06T21:51:00.002+08:00

I've finally make time for blogging. okay, its been a freaking longgg time since I click to this blogger link.
Im super busy. First of all, I've made it to tp in my fav course, alhamdulilah. A dream comes true. So, precisely thats what I'm busy with.

Alright off to next theme for the day. Life.
It may seem short, how I complained daily. that I dont have time for this and that.
I said that time pass so fast, and at times, I let time pass by me just like that.
Wasted it without second thought. While for others, it a whole different story.
Some of them fight for every second of their life. And its a painful experience.
Life was about emotions to me. At times I'm happy, at times I'll get cranky, at times I'll get sad.
Every mixture here and there.
As for today, I encountered happiness stage. I went to my cousin's wedding and it was sucha happy moment.
everyone laughing, hugging and all seems to enjoy it. I felt good seeing them.
And another happy note to add on, Im so happy to see my cousins having a family of their own. taking care of their children. Wasnt that a great thing to have? Embracing those innocent children.

But I move on from happiness to sadness and to agony.
I met my uncle.
The moment when I stepped into the house, I could smell all kind of sanitizer and medicine.
More like a hospital rather than a house.
I move nearly to him. He was lying down there on the bed, which looks exactly like those in hospital.
He was there, trying to fight for every breath. He needs the machine to help him.
Instantly, I could not believe it.
Few months ago, I saw him standing strong in front of me. Laughing & smiling.
Now, all I could see is the new him which looks different.
All skin and bone left with different wire on his body.
Every single action he does, pain him and I could remember vividly.
I wish I could help but I just stand there helplessly and offers him my prayer.
Thats open up my eyes to appreciate life as it is.

And for you dearest uncle, this is for you.

I hope that the warm springs will shelter you
& I pray that in time will heal and better you
Dont let the darkness swallow you
Come out to play so the sun can shine for you
-extracted from young xs song.
May Allah protects you always.

So long everyone. Out. :)

2010-04-11T15:26:00.001+08:00

remember this? awesomeness. its been 2 years & i believe that Ayie's gonna complete his NS soon. I miss the old NorHikmah's family. wahh wahh. many memories today.

2010-04-11T15:19:00.001+08:00

A short conversation with dearest Sairi. The same good old times. I miss everything in the past.
:)

good morning worldddddddddddd!

2010-04-11T12:08:00.002+08:00

oh hehehe. it should be good afternoon.
but i still feel it as morning thingy now.
today is sunday, it feels so good. im not sure why.
but im glad it is doing good. no depression moment.
however, it going to get hard sooner or later i believe.
yesterday i stumped upon an article about Haw Par Villa.
I feel so sad reading it. Im thinking, should I change my job from being
a teacher to a historian? hehehe. awesomenesssssssssssss!
My mum birthday coming up. I cant wait for it.
Okay I will make this a short and sweet post.
Bye everyone! I love love yaaaa!
:)

friday the 9th

2010-04-09T23:04:00.002+08:00

Today was a nice day, it was Friday, what more could I ask for right?
It was my twins' birthday. Happy Birthday to you, Jovee & Jolyn!
U dont need me to mention it anymore, U know that I love you guys. :)
Another factor, I tender. Its been hell thinking about this.
Crossing each day from the calendar, counting down my last day.
It feels like I'm going to be dead and thus the counting down is a must.
It feels so sad. I will feel handicapped without you all. but like what i told you guys.
Anywhere or whatever you guys doing, U know you got me to support u always.
Thanks for being the Wonderkids to a Wonderteacher kay? I love love you all. :)
For the rest of my day, I spent it with dearest at Long John Silver, talk a lil bit.
I love you dear, & I thank Allah for getting me the chance to know you. hehehe
Read this, its for you..... ;)
So, I will update ya soonnnnnnnnnnnnn!
Goodnight reader, see you tmr world! :)

2010-03-28T20:16:00.002+08:00

hello everyone, im back to this cyber world!
I got alot of things to say out.
Many, some left forgotten, some are just not meant to be said.
first of all, I get it into Temasek Poly, eventhough its part time course,
im still glad to Allah for giving me this awesome chance again.
Im gonna do my IELTS exam soon. Wish me the best loves!
Weekend was awesome, it really was.
Let me summarised it.
Saturday, 28th March 10, out with dearest bestfriend.
Head to Town & do lotsa talking. really, alot means really alot.
Hehehe. It was super fun. I love her for being her always.
At times, I know I dont need many friends because I can depend on her.
At times, I know that she replaces the space that left for my future boyfriend.
However, I know im straight. :)
Today, 28th March 10, out with dearest family to Haw Par Villa & Mount Faber.
I can remember the good old days that I used to go Haw Par Villa, was a moment of happiness.
But now, I felt sad to see the state the place is now. Why? I questioned myself.
However, Im still happy to be able to reminisce the good old days. :)
Off to Mount Faber & then boat quay. & then... Woodlands. heheheh. so many places.
I enjoyed myself & now i wanna sleep.
Night all! :)

2010-03-19T20:53:00.002+08:00

Its quite irritating at times when I on my dearest laptop but I didnt have any slightest idea on what to do.
Oh well, Hello to everyone. Guess I've not blog for almost a month plus. Im super busy, Im dead serious in it.
Hehe. Tuition, working & dealing with the kids. I miss you all, kids. Teacher will be back to see you this coming Monday. Well, Monday? The thought of it dawn on me that Im not that prepared for Term 2.
Im still enjoying my short & sweet one week March Holidays. hehe. Guess what I've done this one week?
Urm, basically, I go back to class-nothing unusual about it, I go watched Dear John with dearest Darshni, Out with darling gf, catching those pathetic little crabs and well, I go work at my Uncle's shop. That what I've been doing for more than 2 years. I hate to admit it, but the little shop gives me all the good & memories I needed in my life. The sweetest moment started off from there and I admit, I do complaints- 'I dont want to work here, I hate it.' However, when I stop to think about all the moments, I do love working there. Its like an eye-opener, I learnt many stuff. & nevertheless, thats the place that I met someone whom I listed one of the special people I met & 'fall' in love too. hehehe. Thinking about it, I still have the photo you gave me before your enlistment. Throwing it is like throwing half of my soul away too. But I move on from there, no worries. I'll pray for your happiness alright? Do be a good daddy, I want to see that. :)
Everything is good in my life, I've got everything. I've got bestfriend, best colleagues, best family & of course everyone around me is good. Im thankful to Allah for that. Alhamdulilah.
But somehow, can He bless me with someone nice to be my partner?
hehehe. the one that i saw buying nasi lemak just now was good. hehehe
Chef? A good stuff though. Okay then!
Im done with my blabbering. Im out! :)

itsamondaythingybabey!

2010-02-08T20:32:00.003+08:00

first of all, alhamdulilah to allah to the fact that my dad gets a job.
im sooo happy, only allah knows how scared i am waiting for his call whether he gets the job or not.
today is monday, but thank goodness, i didnt feel that lethargic. hehe.
i love my kids, every day is a blessing whenever i see your face, teacher hawa mean it alright?
i entered the class & they said, 'teacher hawa got a new bag?'
HOHOHO. super observant.
i wanna go swimming tmr, teacher darshni, will you go tmr with me? :)
okay hell yea, im dead tired. just reached home from teaching tuition.
okay, researching on chinese new year now.
have a nice week people! :)

2010-01-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

i realise that i didnt blog as often as i should. however, i should realise this too.
that the fact, i didnt blog much. i feel like deleting this but theres too many memories behold it.
its going to be last day of January tomorrow.
like sooooooo fast, omg.
moving on to february. thinking about months, i realise another factor.
my kid still facing a difficulty in spelling the word "January"
urghhh, need to drill them off. get ready all of you. hehehe.
how am i this few weeks? hehe.
nursery tire me out even though its only 2 hours with them.
my beloved K2 will need more disciplinary act from me. hehe.
but still, they are superrrrrrrrrr cute!
i already applied my diploma in Seed institute. will commence in July if the application is successful.
hopefully yes! :)
oh im thinking of baking cupcakes. hehe. march holiday please come earlier! i need you.
now researching on the fact 'why spider is not an insect?'
sound so funny.
okay people, i need to rest.
super tired. bestfriend, i'll meet you again soon. :)
till then. goodnight~

imma wonderwoman.

2010-01-09T22:06:00.002+08:00

Fourthly,Hawa, Dayah & myself.Although Hawa left us early, dear Hawa, it has been the greatest pleasure having you in my life. You made my poly days one of the best yet, and because of you I look forward to school. I love seeing how you presented, so damn cute you know!I hope to meet you soon, Hawa. I've to pour out my heart's content to you because it's been so long and so much has happened. I'm sure it's the same on your side too. I wish you well throughout your lifetime, and if you ever find yourself to be in a fix and you need someone to be there, I'll always be the one to lend you my shoulders and ears.It would be my biggest honour :)- taken from my dearest feeqah blog. SO SWEET RIGHT?! :)

alright fine, life been hectic. no words could describe it though. nursery class is a tough nut to crack.
but i'll persevere. i'll.
i learnt many things today.
if we tends to pull something too hard, it'll just break & we will lose it.
but if we were to hold it loose, it'll just fly & the consequence will still be the same.
so, we just must know our own limits.
i've been trying to hard, finding love everywhere. & it sounds so wrong.
so, how abt letting it go now & let it be the other way round.
find me baby. :)
alright, will update you guys soon.
& wait, u know what? i've got a japanese kid in my class & he's so cute. awwww. ;)
chaoooooooooo.

2009-12-24T12:12:00.001+08:00

heres the card for that guy i mentioned in previous post. hehehe. inspired by magdalene design. :)

im a wonderwoman babey.

2009-12-24T10:15:00.002+08:00

guess what? i feel so wrong. hehehe.
remember, i did said about doing some important task.
oh well, its not even here. i mean i wrote that down in my diary instead of blog.
yea, i 'conducted' the mission already.
okay, honestly after testing my speech with diana gf, i still couldnt said out my piece to him.
At last, my mum the one who snatched the letter/card that I've made & gave it to him.
Im like omg! What am I doing? Is it a good move or eventually no?
I was overpowered by the feeling of anxiousness. Nothing make it right.
So, guess what I do? I went shopping the whole day.
The Checklist:
1. 1 guess wallet
2. 2 clothes
3. spec for fafahbaby
4. shoe
5. fake eyelashes (many of them) (:
In a single day ONLY, i spend $120 because of the anxiety I felt.
Dumb. hehe.
After all that I wrote above, I didnt even mention whats really happening.
Okay well, here it goes.
'Daily', I used to saw this one guy whom I thought his age is 19, walking past opp my aunt's stall.
For almost a year supposingly.
& I've made a card/letter for him with the intention of passing it to him because I wants to be friends with him.
But yesterday, my precious mum who passed it to him.
& we are friends in FB.
I felt desperate for doing that, seriously. like dumb girl doing this.
But, I psycho myself , with help from Adillah, in thinking that only wonderwoman do this. HOHO.
So, the story goes from here. I dont even knows what to say next.
Just wish the best for me okay?
I love you people. :)

random post.

2009-12-22T20:39:00.007+08:00

HOHO! ever since its christmas coming, i've got this tendency to laugh using ' hoho'.

Okay, its been a long period of time since i update this precious blog.
anyway, as if people do read my blog. hehe.

alright, today had a chat through offline msges with this guy whom i treat like my small bro.

I know he must be in a confused state & i know how he felt.

but one thing! hoho. he said that i could be a counsellor. thanks for that praise. hehehehe.

all i have to say, strive hard nazri. i know i'll see you end up in poly even if you go through this route. :)

theres my conver with him. read it up.

time for big school

2009-11-20T21:00:00.002+08:00

Remember the last worksheet that I've done with all of you?
it called time for big school. & i remembered how i said, this going to take a longer time to finish.
but yet, its seem to be so fast. today is the last day for the term.
the last day all of my precious K2 going to their pre-sch lesson.
Im going to pray that all of you will soon grow up to be a useful person esp to the society & your family of course.
I wasnt looking for this day to come. Yes, I admit it was nice to have a half day, to have the class playing & dressing up nicely just now. But, I still prefer to see you sitting in front of me, asking question with those blur faces, at times make me angry till I can cried & wanted to leave everything at that moment & lastly seeing you singing & dancing in class. That would be better than seeing all of you having your last lesson with me just now.

The last song u were singing touched my heart deep deep.
'Sha lala, Sha lala take my school bag giong home.'
'Say goodbye to teacher, goodbye to my friends.'
'See you no more teacher hawa.'

AWWW. so saddddd! when at usual time i always heard you said 'see you tmr teacher hawa'

Please, do keep in touch. Im so happy to be able to teach all of you for my first batch of student.
hopefully i'll be able to see you guys around soon.
I LOVE YOU K2 DIAMOND 1 & 2. :)

2009-10-27T21:18:00.002+08:00

i was wondering, which one should I start first? The sad or the happy moments?
After a long time pondering, I supposingly thinks that I had enough of all those sad memories.
Lets move on with the happpy moments.
Im so happy to see my kids everyday, every second of my life.
The innocent faces makes me feel at ease everytime.
Yea, there are times that I felt I wanted to let go of the job, I wanted to scream my head off.
However, they repeatedly give me the strength and the joy whenever I felt low or tends to give up.
Why all of you are so sweet to me? Hehe.
K2 Diamond 1 & 2, i love you so much.
I still can remember what Willy told me earlier on,

MY CONVERSATION WITH WILLY.
' Teacher Hawa, next year when I go Pri 1, I will come here at 1pm to visit you can?'
I smiled, and he continued ' Teacher Hawa, why you got one dimple? I got 2.'
I laughed. He never failed to make me smile.

graduation concert coming, hope I can really do my utmost best for it. hehe.
im tired but at the same time happy to see all of your smiles loves.
goodnightttttt people. get well soon teacher kailing, i love you. :)

random but meaningful just for you.

2009-09-28T22:06:00.002+08:00

i wont say much but to you: dengarkan aku, ku merindukanmu. :(

2009-09-16T21:18:00.002+08:00

The first thing that I could think of when I woke up last few days is him.
Why should I still bother to think abt him?
Why should I still feel breathless whenever my mind were full of you?
Why should I still keep the photo that you gave me?
& why should I ever believed in the first place that you will not changed?
Now, it seems to be clear. You have changed, and that broke my heart.
I didnt know why I just couldnt put your photo aside when I knew the fact
that you belong to someone else now.
Remember the time when I used to sit beside you and do nothing else except seeing you
play with your PSP? The time when we used to exchange meaningful glance & smile?
The song that you used to sing for me?
Do you know that whenever you felt hurt, I used to feel it too?
But still, Im wishing you all the best for your future relationship.
You gonna do it well. :)
Im not acting noble, it still hurt when I have to say this out but you should knw this love,
whenever you are happy, im happy too. & that applies to this.
Thanks for all the care, concern, love & memories. I appreciate it.
This is for you, I love you & takecaree.

2009-08-31T21:08:00.000+08:00

awaiting to see my kids today & when i saw them, they were full of excitement.
the excitement in them makes me smile for the whole day despite all the tiring day i've experienced.
the kids wont be able to read this post but still i want to express my greatest THANK YOU to all of you.
the gift all of you gave me is really priceless.
I LOVE YOU KIDS.
now i knw how good the feeling is.
okee, off now. i need my rest.
will post the pic & video soon. :)
the quote for today that i get from the net : 'Teaching is the profession that teaches all the other profession'.
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL. hee.

good morning teacher.

2009-08-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

its been my fourth day.
checklist: marking done
labeling done
story telling done
art&craft done
YES! all done. heee.
& tmr fri. cant wait for weekends.
now i knw how hard it is to be a teacher.
but oh well, i will miss my naughty&cute students esp shakir, willy etc.
i have to go on, proceeding to my research on underwater creatures.
in case my student ask weird question which left me thinking abt it in a blur manner.
goodnight all. :)

2009-08-18T19:27:00.000+08:00

I suppose, that I dont need any title for today. heee.
Alright, been busy for this two wholesome day.
First of all, I want to say alhamdulilah for everything He gives.
Step into unknown place with unknown faces looking at me in their innocent & blur look.
After introducing, they said in a loud but nice manner ' Good Morning Teacher Hawa '
oh my goodness. u knw what? I was about to cry, sincerely.
My dream, somehow is so near.
& off I go for 2 hours with them & then another class came.
a break for one hour, I didnt realised it was so tiring till I had my break.
After break, off to my third class, which is much more challenging.
couldnt control their noise and class was a complete mess.
go home in a demoralised mood but still happy that I achieved this.
Today brand new dayyyyyyy. I could somehow control the class.
it was much more meaningful today, much moree.
esp shakir, why are you so cute? heee. :)
oke, gtg. teacher hawa off. heh.

vm,korejhg034r

2009-08-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

ohh. ignore the bloody title.
just that its been a lousy weeks & pulling me down.
i just felt angry w/o any valid reason.
okeee people. lets move on.
the topic for today: mood
i wake up today, in a gd mood.
but PMS destroy all.
& dont even know howta stay positive after that.
everything get on my nerve.
everything.
lesson to be learnt today: anger wont get you anywhere, it destroy you.
night people.
mood swing coming. :(

IMINLOVE. :)

2009-08-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

oh well, matchmaking in this modern days?
do anyone of you believe in it?
i dont, but yet i still fall for it. hee.
it was a nice one.
when now you are gone, all i can do is to smile when i reminisce the moment with you.
well, see you in next meeting again.
the way you smile, the way u talked in the calm manner. in every little thing, im just touched.
okee, stop it. :)
enjoyed my day with beloved.
go to hougang near akimm house to send beloved to clinic.
was msging akimm tanye die 'uma kau ade byk clinic mura2 kan?'
& die nyee reply ' smue same je.'
hahaha. ape ahhh geng.
well, it cost me 2o bucks only. muraa pe.
then off to hougang mall, eat at long john silver with loves.
had a great long talk which we hardly have the time to do it.
laugh abt NJK. which is quite a senstive issue. hee.
meet ziela pendek for awhile.
been quite awhile gitu eh kite jumpe?
meet you some day again alright?
i miss dayah uhhh. :)
night people.

hidayahrahmantheberuk.

2009-07-30T21:20:00.001+08:00

dread waking up early but is there any choice?
heee. pemalas nyee anak dara.
busy looking at WDA website. what shud i do uh?
oh btw torres lookso hawt eh? ahaha. but syg, gi liverpool buat pe. tsk
whatever it is, go owen! im behind you. :)
dayah bodo siaa.. her own confession.
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aku tk buruk
aku beruk
muhahahaha

hahahaha. she made my day. bgos lah tu lau kau da ngaku ye?! hahahaha. crazy!
imissyou&feeqah.& semualahhh. :(
oh one thing, i hate the two mamat ite yg ngumpat abt me.
sebok je krg. suke hati aku ah if aku sombong. tsk.
buat pe nak senyum kat krg?! tsk.

you suck man

2009-07-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

my heart pain like hell to see you ronaldo.
u scored a goal for real madrid. urgh.
i still cant get pass it. i still cant take it anymore.
i hate you please. :(

2009-07-29T22:50:00.000+08:00

oke fine. eventhough everything look soo alright now, i still cant post pic. hee.
nvmm. :)
im done with lotsa thing today & yea. im strong. heee.
today was good & im loving it.
will post some new pics with new mates soon.
seems like im the youngest among all to attend the course, but that doesnt stop me uhh.
i lovee rosiana, that indonesiaaa bibik. heee. eh sorry ah kamu? :)
keeping myself busy is the only thing that could keep me occupied, honestly.
i still couldnt get it, everytime i went into a mosque for the ferst time, conferm sesat. masyaallah. ape jdi hawa? :(
confident banget that ruang i enter was dewan solat wanita. check2, tempat lelaki plak.
so muke sardin je ahh. tros klua.
heee. masjid kassim seems big jgkk. impressive.
go geylang pastu beli baju raye & off to makan.
smangat raye ehhh? heee. padahal hutang puasa blm bayar. tsk.
oh well, saturday is cuming. please, let it be a good thing. :)
sairi, knape tak online seh? tsk. takpelah.
lovelove you guys. night.

2009-07-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

today was alright, i love joice & kak shidaa. bunch of sweet people.
somehow i always felt lost. where should i head next?
where must i go? tell me people. tell me.
please, i beg of you be easy on me.
likewise i always said, im positively happy & should just go on with it alright?
I CAN DO IT. yeaaa. :)
why does blogger still suck now? tsk.
watching anugerah now. i only lovessssss sarah aqilah. go for it lovelove.
alright, im off from heree.
last but not least, i love you sein. hee. :)

HAWA GUNDU

2009-07-27T11:57:00.000+08:00

oke fine. today i woke up early as usual.
then off to prepare myself for today's course at kembangan.
take bus no 3 & train.
when i reached there, a lady told me.
'sorry miss, the course commence tomorrow. on 28th-29th. its not today.'
i told her its oke & it was my mistake initially. omg. wth im doing?!
didnt even check out the date properly.
so now, back home safely. wasted my time & trip.
i dont knw why, but why must i be emotional this few days?!
its not PMS, its just me.
anothet thing, i remember telling myself again & again not to be affected by affair of the heart.
but still, im entangled in this.. i should stop all this nonsense.
& concentrate my time for the future.
no guys, no crush for now hawa.
eh but wait, im straight oke. :)
im so pissed off that this blogger couldnt post picture. tsk.

quote for the day

2009-07-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

omg. this quote suit me well.
thanks to dayah. she invent this quote herself. brilliant.
'A dreamer with a big broken heart to match'
thanks for the quote dayah. i miss you very much. :(

can u stop doing this?

2009-07-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

after all that happened, i have to admit a lesson is learnt.
& i just dont want to elaborate in it.
to see your wrist being slashed by YOURSELF, it makes me feel the pain too.
when u were crying over the misery, when u do this to yourself, the only thing i could do is..
to cry & see your face helplessly.
remember the times when we used to share secrets, the time when we share every clothes.
you were my life, the best among cousin i've known.
the one i depend on whenever i faced difficulties.
but, u destroy everything.
my trust & your life.
when you do this, u knw what?
half of me is gone just like how you are doing to your own life.
& somehow all i want to do is to save you from the misery. :(

2009-07-22T21:52:00.002+08:00

oke lets begin. its my mistake. im harsh. i admit. its not what i want to do. but now, im oke. trust me. things will go as per normal insyaallah. but give me time. its not as easy as it can be said. sorry people.

2009-07-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i admit. im suck in it. & i just cant help it..

cry all i want.

2009-07-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

I miss all my dear friends.
when i was crying my heart out today. there are several people whom i thought of.
diana bmy, fana, shafeeqah, die-ah.
goshhh. life getting tough.
please, let me be strong.
my word for today: stupidity doesnt kill, but giving up does.
so please hawa. move on beb.
thanks diana for listening. & thanks akimm for giving advice. ur joke are sooo. hahaha. nvm. :)
to siti fana, terime kaseh lah jgk ye? heee.

13o7o9

2009-07-13T21:25:00.005+08:00

oke, first of all.
my morning was a flop. heee.
wth happened to my shoe?
alright, i shouldnt wear high heel shoe, & thus failing many activites today.
shall not mention it.
from boat quay, head to bugis. buy stuff.
i just realised that my $$$$ is becoming lesser & life doesnt get easier too.
interview by interview, appointment by appointment & theres briefing too.
but still, im nowhere from getting a successful life.
i cried, for almost interview. throw my high heel and sat outside. its a dreadful feeling.
i had my crying moments & i believed its time to be positive. eventhou its only 85% positive.
but yes, i can make it for sure. :)
well in the evening part, my mood wasnt that bad anymoreee.
meet akimm to pass the present & hope that he like it.
ehhh, i work damn hard to buy u present oke. cehhh, takdelahhh.
but apape pon, i appreciate ur present ah. :)
oke end it here then.
pray for my success people.

random nana sachek.

2009-07-12T19:29:00.001+08:00

my beloved nana sachekkkkkkkkk. haha wth you.

moodless

2009-07-12T18:07:00.003+08:00

damn this bloody mood.
wth. im soo moodless this few days. why uhh?
oke, webcaming with diana beloved nw.
i miss her like mgoiu4980ti346908t.
just came bck from cat farm at pasir ris, tired.
oh well, i've been a busy women this few days. hee.
rushing everywhere, here & there.
job interviews, course preview, appointments, going dwn to rp again.
& on my final meeting with the programme chair, i felt sooo sad.
she asked me this ' are you sure?' & i replied 'yes.'
off she go to click on the approval button.
& yes honestly, my heart break. of course, this wasnt the ending i want, but i hope its going to be a right move.
i miss everyone in rp & esp E35P. now, im officially out of rp & E35P too.
can i still meet all of you again sometimes? i really do miss all the moments.
alright, tmr MAYBE going to watch movie with hakim. diana, jom ikot please?
i sound sooo free yeaa? but honestly, it does not feel good.
i miss mr chen & communication module. :(
but whatever it is, im ready to face the world. i will work hard from now.
do support me alright people?
i miss all of youu. :)

MY NAME IS NUR HAWA

2009-06-30T08:48:00.002+08:00

not working, not doing e learning, not in any mood.
wth hawa?!
yesterday send mum to her workplace. felt extremely bad for asking her to restu my decision to quit sch.
so being nice to her was what i can do to make up for the things i've done.
i helped her do her work. cook mee rebus, mee siam, tahu goreng.
then ard 11.30 off i go. i cant stand it, i hurt her too much.
thought of going bck to sengkang.
instead of taking train which will takes ard 2o min, i took bus no 8o which tooks ard 1 hr.
walking aimlessly. didnt knw whats my next step.
sat at the library & off to meet ain. because today her sis birthday.
so pass her the present & watch jgn tegur. maut pe ain?
hahaha. i watch that show & here i am with this puffy eyes. I COULDNT SLEEP. wth.
kau nye pasal ahh kasi aku tgok cite hantu kan takble tdo skrg.
currently chatting with her now. online pagi nah cik kak? hee.
oh well i love this part.

Julia Roberts says:
hahah
diam eh
jgn smpi aku hanta amirah dtg ruma rembat kau
hahah

klakaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. meh ahh, brani pe? hahaha.

can everything goes back as per normal? i love you mum & doing this to you wasnt in my list at all.
SORRY.

GOOOOOOOOD DAY.

2009-06-26T21:45:00.004+08:00

FIRST & FOREMOST PEOPLE. lets do this alright?

HAPPY EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY AKIMMM OI.

may all your wishes cum true, & may Allah grant what you want in life.

do well in life alright? thats it then. im done with it ! (:

oh wait, this picture looks nice & better lahh wlpon typical. heee.

oke, lets proceed. today's communication was sooo hard.

im sooo tired.

well i go out early in the morning to meet dayah at wdls library.

work all the way till 4 i think.

damn hard..

gosh, & i didnt even do my stuff now do u knw that?

sch getting hard & grades been hell for me.

but for shure people, i will bounce back i told you.

hahaha.

doing ntg currently, just chatting with izwan, fana & zielaaa.

ohh well. im going off now. RJ not done. night people ! :)

i love you diana. heee. asal tak online?

& dont worry too much dayah. soon all will be oke, insyaallah.

2009-06-25T11:47:00.003+08:00

first & foremost, thanks khai !

THANKS FOR THE CHOCOLATE CAKE. (:

aku suke ahh pic kau gini, mcm lawa gitu hair kau. heee

i was reallly sooooooooo touched with what he has done.

he bake a chocolate cake for me which taste superb i swear.

thanks for making my day. kau lah kawan baik aku. hees.

oke move on..
today e learning was..
no comment.
maybe im not used to it yet.
i was sooo panicking like ' omg, omg. what should i do? goshh. '
but then, im move on & now im like.. 'whatever'
hahaha. oke.
im done with ppt & werksheet.
off i go now. takecaree people
oh well, i love you guys. dayah, feeqah, fana, diana, ayn. (:

state of mind

2009-06-24T09:48:00.002+08:00

i wasnt hoping for this.
i wasnt hoping to breaks my mum's heart.
i wasnt even hoping to go on a cry routine everyday & having a restless night.
that wasnt me.
its the hardest thing i have to do now. can someone like understand me please?
I didnt do this on purpose thou.
i will regret this, i knw it.
but the main idea is, where should i head? where should i go?
whatever it is mum, im sorry.

sing me a happy song please

2009-06-23T18:10:00.002+08:00

i miss you dayah & feeqah.
only god knw. how i cry each time when i think on the decision im making & how it going to affect our friendship. whatever it is, thanks for being the greatest friends.
after going through this difficult moment, I think I need a time out really.
exhausted. my eyes look damn awful. & thanks for the comment fidtriaaa.
i didnt cry because of him, i cried because of the decision im making my dear.
ohh well, do pray for me people that its going to a smooth sailing process.
thanks diana,farhana & akiim for going thru this. i appreciate it. thanks

2009-06-23T09:01:00.002+08:00

disappointment.
isnt that what u guys might be thinking abt me?
what u want to be right now hawa?
unemployed?
get married?
wth am i thinking right now?
i dont need anyone to critise me anymore, because i had enough
i just need someone to walk side by side accompanying me through this toughest decision im making.

love. <3

2009-06-22T13:06:00.002+08:00

2oth june.

okeeee, here's update to all. (:
before i proceed, here my biggest thanks to all of you who making it possible on saturday. I LOVE YOU ALL
saturday was a kinda birthday celebration for my eighteen birthday & a reunion. it was a hell lotsa fun.
i've great time, take note of this diana. hahaha. the event manager for saturday outing. heee
ohhh ohhh, sorry to HannahOgy & SitiFaz for being late.
but we did much more better than si akiim tu uhhh. die lgi peh lambat.
ohh well, move on.
we ate at sakura thai restaurant, which is expensive to me.
but, thanks lot for the treat, the ice cream thingy. sooo terkejot when krg bwk tu icecream sehhh. hee
& thanks for the birthday wish & song. heee. kecoh sak satu sakura, krg nye pasal ahhh. (:
i will update the pics at night. using the sch laptop now.
oh well, another 4 days akiim da 18. legal age pe? hahahaha.
random. alright, will continue later oke? (:

lalalalalalalala~

2009-06-18T22:21:00.003+08:00

im happy today. i told mum that. & she told me this ' gerl mmg slalu happy pe, ape beza nye?' translation: ' you are always happy, whats the different?' ohh pleaseee, when im sad i didnt show u what. hahahaha.
im happy because tmr is friday. oh yeaaa. thats the way i love it. its gonna be weekends again.
that sound better right? oke fine.. here's the list i wanna say thanks too.
dearest mum & dad(ILOVEYOUBOTH)
siti farhana bte md k (:
deeana (:
he die ah loves
feeqah darling
sairi(iloveyoutoonsboy,thanks)
widiah
ziela baby
dominic the guardian angel (:
Izwan the kind hearted guy
mama norisha & cik idris
dearest abg ajan&abg ayie
adie the genius boy
eugene 4n1
along& the siblings
angahyati&eddy
nurulain (:
weiling sweetheart
yaya & bob
jade & comel (:
iikin loves (:
liiyahh independent (:
pakbusu & mak busu
............& so on
there's more.. but i cant do it larrr.
hahaha. but!
TO E35P THANK YOU !!!!
HERE'S MY HEARTFELT THANKS.. HEEE.
im so glas that i met them in my life.
im sooooooooooo touched. really.
omg, its like a dream.
THANKS CLASS FOR THE SURPRISE.
THANKS DEEANA FOR THE EXPENSIVE PERFUME.
THANKS DAYAH FOR THE KEYCHAIN.
THANKS CAIYUN FOR THE DIARY.
THANKS KAK NURUL FOR THE NOVEL.
& LASTLY THANKS IZWAN FOR THE TEDDY BEAR. (:
APPRECIATE IT GUYS.
oke then, end it here. night guys.
i love you die-ah & feeqah. heee. (:
ohhh, you too fana bmk. haha

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2009-06-17T22:51:00.002+08:00

THANKS E35P. & I KNW THIS WAS MAG'S DESIGN. THANKS LOVE. (:

oke, shall update abt the rest of the part tmr. im soooooooooooo tired. really.

but to whoever.. THANKS. will say it all out in tmr post..

oh well, HAPPY EIGHTEEN BDAY TO MYSELF. HEEE.

night all. (:

saturday blues

2009-06-06T20:48:00.002+08:00

im soooooo in love with taufik batisah.
oke,random sungguh..
today was oke. didnt have much comment on it.
i used to enjoy saturday. everytime, i looked forward to working on saturday.
because, the reason would be that i can meet abg ayie & abg ajan.
saturday is always more relaxing than the weekdays so whole lot of us will sat dwn together & talked.
laugh until cry. but, theres no more.
how i wish, i could still do that.
well, i could always do that with abg ajan.. which currently im still doing.
but not with ayie. are we drifting apart?
i knw u wont bother anymore to read this & wont even read it but..
its oke.. i just hope you will be happy with your life as a firefighter.
i miss so many people in a day. i miss dayah, feeqah,diana bmy, fana, ziela, khai, ogy, siti & many larrrrrr..
im being too emotional i guess. im off now. night all.

lifeeeeee~

2009-06-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY FOR NORHIKMAH'S STALL.
yesssssssssssssssssssssssss ! (:
it do meant alot for me, after all this stall undergo lotsa ups & dwn.
nearly closed it down few months ago due to some reason.. but now it standing strong.
U make me proud baby.
& today it was CIK IDRIS BIRTHDAY ! hee.
i knw you are not feeling that good today but whatever it is, enjoy your superb day.
gerl doakan yg terbaik for cik idris alright?
DONE.. next would be..

Oke, today was hectic. Laughing all the way with abg ajan.. He sucha genius. kept on giving me words which seems so pelik for me. & yeaaa, i lose. example of the qns: WHAT IS ENNUI?
can you like knw what it is? hahahah. dang, i dont evn knw.
mel came to the stall, sat dwn with her & have a nice talk.. after quarelling with her for few weeks or perhaps going to be months, this is the first time we began to talk to each other nicely & have fun back.
i miss you honestly & it seems great thing to be on the right track again.
just now, was soooooooooooo embarrassing. when i was making my way out from masjid after solat zohor, i fell dwn. then someone said ' tgok abg hensem sgt sampai jatoh ke?'
goshhh, i hate that guy for goodness sake. nvm..
so in conclusion, today was fun eventhou it was hectic due to many customer today.
im done with this post. (:

loves.

2009-06-01T22:40:00.004+08:00

feeqah&dayah the sweetheart. zie, theres up & dwn in our friendship. i ought to say this to you, i love you very much. i really do appreciate our fwenship alot. & all the best for you ngn net alright? heee. study hard, jgn ingt kawin je beb. (:

secondary 3. & how nerdy i looks like. i miss this moment thou. (:

ONLY GODS KNW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU DEE.

beloved classmated with mr.choo, the maths teacher. heee

THATS ALL FOR NOW. (:

1st June 2009

2009-06-01T21:24:00.002+08:00

its been months since i updated this blog. & yeaa, plain lazy i supposed.
many things had happened & guess there's alot to tell.
slowly yeaa.
On 2oth april, sch started. First day was alright. I had fun in class, sitting beside Hidayah who turn up to be my bestie in E35P. Wonderful girl.. & yeaaa. after one month++ in rp, I made few good friends. Some to be mention is of course, Hidayah, Feeqah, Izwan, Ivan & Mag. sweet bunch of people.
I gone thru alot in this one mth, the up & dwn of life. & for standing strong all this while, i ought to say million of thanks to you syg. To Diana, I love you.. Thanks for being there when I called you crying helplessly. U made me felt better and motivated to go on. Thanks for the call everytime when I reached home. I do appreciate it, really. oke, enough abt sch life. Its holiday baby. I ought to cherish every moment of it. heee. (:

shall mention now all abt the april babies..
TO BELOVED ZIELA, HAPPY BELATED EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY SYG.. 3 YEARS EH? HEEE.
TO KHAI SWEETHEART, HAPPY BELATED EIGTHEEN BIRTHDAY.. thanks for coming to sch with me. do it again alright?
TO OGY THE HANDSOME GUY, HAPPY BELATED EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO !
HANNAH, HAPPY BELATED SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY.. HEE. UR SO UNLUCKY TO GET OGY SEHH. (:
TO SITI ERNA, HAPPY BELATED EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY.. I MISS YOU UHH BEB.
oke done with the fwen bday list. (:
ohhh yeaaa. lastly..
TO MY BELOVED MUM, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!!!!
DONE. heee.
next..

oke, theres more to tell but shall delay all that.
next post then i will talk abt the rest of the issue.
As for today, I began to work again.
dang.. I miss those moment. I miss all the people there.
I miss wan trip, abg ajan, mama norishah, cik idris, that cute abg & many moreeee lerrr.
& theres tmr. im so exciteddddddddd. (:
however, im sad too.
Ah tong, my china fwen working as cleaner at my workplace get fired and were told to go back to China tmr.
IM SO SAD TO HEAR THAT.
he's a one amazing guy, polite & always smiling.
I was looking forward to see him daily again but theres no more chance.
to Ah tong, do takecaree & i will miss you soooooooo much.
oke before im off from here.
some word to share: MAN UTD THE BEST. NO MATTER WHAT PEOPLE SAID. (:
night readers.

2009-03-05T17:44:00.003+08:00

lalalalala~
im happy.
hahaha. oke , today im not working.
my off day so went out with fana as usual.
go to my beloved ex sch , punggol sec.
haha. im the ferst person to take my o lvl cert. haha. proud to be. (:
saw couple of teachers , & i did say this in my heart ' i miss you all'
haha. mr shan still the same. very funny & good discipline teacher.
after eating at sch stall , off i head to hougang mall.
but i remember makcik kat stall skola tu kate ' eh makin tembam ah kau '
HAHAHAHA ! ye ke ? kene work hard to kurus then. adoi. heh.
but nvm , im happy with what i have. alhamdulilah. ((:
buy two shirt & make up accesories. huhuhuhu~
left with 15 bucks due to the shopping spree.
fana the best.. hahaha.
end it here.
takecaree to all sweet readers. hees.

happy day. lalalalala~

2009-02-26T20:40:00.002+08:00

& yes. im happy today. hahahaha.
today i taken off day from werk.
woke up at 6.30 am & decided to msg fana.
haha , i knw she wont like it.
but whatsoever. i like it ape.
then decided to sleep bck , & woke up at 8.30.
dgn kelam kabot sayer bangon dari tidor & pergi mandi.
hees. then at 9.30 off to punggol inter to meet fana.
stop at clarke quay station to meet mom at her stall.
fana had her interview at AIA tower.
nak carik tempat tu punye larr susah !
after her interview , kite pon pergilarr makan kat tempat keje sayerr.
da kenyang , kite head to town.
shopping habes oi ! haha
oke larr , penat berjalan satu hari suntuk.
im waiting for you anw beb. online soon. (:

2009-02-09T19:24:00.002+08:00

haha. its kinda funny thou.
to see , those words from ain & diana.
i , myself didnt knw whats material sci is all about.
but what i knw is that it got a broad perspective.
people who graduate from that course could be engineer or work in lab doing research.
eventhou not my kinda type of job i looking forward but its oke.
as long as im studying still.
i have to move on , havetha go out from my comfort zone. so i have to try new thing.
so , hawa go for it ! :)
today was a tiring monday.
got lotsa thing to do.
peel potato , serve customer , wash the dishes.
& today im going to slp early ah ! heh.

sad

2009-02-06T21:57:00.002+08:00

today was a hectic day for me.
not because of work.
but because of my decision of taking private diploma instead of entering poly.
i wanted to so much to enter psychology related course in any poly.
but i couldnt , i was posted to material sci at rp.
& mum disagree with my action.
she thought going to poly was the best option.
if that makes her happy , then go ahead. im oke with me.
im gonna stop here. tiring day for me. thanks diana for being there for me.
appreciate it thou.

2009-01-25T16:58:00.002+08:00

this blog not dead mind you , nurulain.
heh. im just busy or should i say plain lazy. haha
alright , im busy working this whole week.
on friday , i meet ain at chinatown mrt station.
she wanted to go to subordinate court because of kalipah case.
so i meet her to show her direction. heh.
she's still the same. prangai cartoon !
hope to meet her aqain one fine day.
when we were so called hanging outside the court , i was hoping that kalipah sis would come.
& then i would ask for her autograph. haha.
but sadly mak die je ade. haha.
whatever it is , be strong je oke ain. =)
to diana too , i miss you lots seh. haha. see you soon loves.
oke , ill end it here. update soon oke.
happy chinese new year ! heh.

19 january

2009-01-20T20:50:00.001+08:00

heres some pic i took with bestie , fana on our monday outinq. shes crazy !

oke then. end it heree.

2009-01-20T20:30:00.002+08:00

oke fine. the bloq is finally beinq updated. heh.
sorry quys for leavinq this bloq dead for a temporary moment ,
& sorry to you too nurulain azman for not updatinq.
so here some news to tell.
ferst of all , i qet my o level result on 12th january.
alhamdulilah , i did quite oke for it. heh.
i qet 2o pts for L1R4. ble larr tu kan ?
i qet D7 for my maths ! cool or what ? heh.
didnt expect to qet that kinda qrade. thouqht it would be F9 !
heh , whatever it is im kinda satisfied with the result.
to those who concern about my result & did msq me , tankiu quys.
u all are the pillar of my support. heh.
name to be mention: siti , diana , nurulain , fana , hairi , abq ajan , dearest kak wei , mama , nurul & many more.
thanks for all the support. heh. appreciate thou.
esp my family members & my beloved parents.
but one thinq that botherinq me is which poly & courses to qo.
i just choose randomly. & its like wth.
another qood news. im happy for ain. at last she can see her beloved bf which i dont knw whats the name & which i called adek nyerr nurun nuwarrah. heh.
& yea , im waitinq for 30th jan for the exact poly & courses which i could enter.
so wish me the best for future !
oh yea ! to fauzi syazwan. all the best for the interview at republic poly tmr. =)

sad event

2008-12-12T20:32:00.002+08:00

death is always refer to sadness.
we knew that death will happen to everyone.
but its kinda sudden.
to allahyarham muhammad faizal & atok yahya , i'll pray for both of you.
thats the only thing i can do.
may both of you rest in peace..

2008-12-12T20:15:00.003+08:00

gyea , im back baby.
its like so lonq since i update this blog.
yea , busy like hell..
helping out at my aunt stall at boat quay was fun.
but the bad thing , i miss out all the times spendinq with fwens just to help out there.
esp diana , i knw i always cant make time for her. im sorry.
i hope you do understand. whatever it is , im sorry.
to ziela , i couldnt meet you too. esp the time when you came to the stall.
haha , aku da balik larr syg. sala timinq. da tak nampak mamat spark tu. haha !
sorry ye ? =))
this few weeks , lotsa thing happened.
in a blink of eyes , its been 1 month of holidays.
& within this one month , theres alot of story to be tell.
i'll start with my outing with diana.
haha. damn thing.
she was my crazy fwen.
we qo to buqis & we didnt go there to shop , but instead we do lotsa talking.
funny stuff. diana fav dialoq " confirm die jealous" HAHA !
only diana & me know sape ' DIA' yq kite refering to.
after few days of that outing , diana was due for operation.
i did pray for you oke loves. haha. & the op turn out well.
you are damn strong , im proud of you , seriously. =))
ill continue on the next post ayee ? got something to do.
haha. night !

2008-12-02T20:25:00.007+08:00

2008-11-19T21:13:00.006+08:00

gyea. im backk.
after a long break from blogging.
so for now , o lvl finally over.
didnt need to open any chem files checkinq for notes.
didnt need to read up essay by essay & do source based anymore.
didnt need to do compre & compo.
didnt need to do maths tys & listen to mr. choo ' problem , problem ? '
haha. but out of sudden.
i miss those moment so much.
i can cried everytime when i think about it.
ah shyt. the most important part of all is friends.
those friends which i'll miss like hell.
14112o08- memorable day. haha.
finally after stressinq about whether or not to qo , i decided to just qo larr for the prom thingy.
regret if i didnt qo sehh.
fun nakk mampos ! haha. i'll post the pic soon alright. =)

officially last day

2008-10-10T13:45:00.004+08:00

after all the up and down i go thru for the past few mths & today , finally the official last day for the sec4exp/5na. i always was hoping for this day to come when i started my sec5na lives. but when the day come , i wished that this day would not happen. because i love school. weird ? yea , i knw. ever since i was sec 1 , i kept having this mindset that school is boring. but i grow up and are matured enough to think now. that sch are like my second home. and the endless love shown by all the teachers will always remain in my heart.
yesterday was my last chemistry lesson with mr.low. eventhou i seriously hate chemistry , but it was mr low that introduce alots of things that seems to be alien stuff to me and i eventually get a hang on it. THANKS MR LOW ! hehs. i feel sad out of sudden. maybe im avery emotional person. but i think the teachers who had teach 5n1 all this while must had a very difficult time handling us. & today , only 6 people attend sch which then left 3 people and left me only in the end. pathetic. hehs. i still manage to say goodbye to the class. alright , i knw what a lunatic i am. & for surely ill miss 5n1 greatly. we gone thru alot. those scolding and stuff.
after this , ill be damn busy with o levels. & then im going to be officially graduate from this school. ecxited but i feel sad at the same time. alright guys , good luck for o levels examination.
& u knw what , i miss mr edwin tan & mr david chua out of sudden. those wonderful teacher. jyeah , see u in the next post then.

2008-07-28T17:06:00.003+08:00

was damn busy every day.
homewerk , remedials , werk stuff.
i wished i had some time to just relax.
prelim cominq & i quess o level is round the corner too.
yet , my motivation & determination to work hard fot the final lap was qone.
somehow i felt like i wanted to qive up on this.
it wasnt easy you knw , to handle so many stuff at one hand.
poa and maths , F9.
like so the qreat eh ?
alright , i need to buck up from now !
even if im qoinq to flunq this whole exam , at least i knw i did my best.
so ill start revisinq then.
quess i wont have the time to work at norhikmah's stall anymore.
i wont be updatinq so often alright?
pray hard fer me. : )
btw , i done quite okay for history ! hehs. ferst time in sec 5.

2008-06-17T21:31:00.002+08:00

today was my seventeen birthday.
yea , ferst of all thanks for the wishes people.
hehs , i had a qreat day just now.
with ziela , danny nqn wan cuminq to norhikmahs stall and creatinq chaos.
but i love it.
they throw donuts at my face. ( credit to zie )
pushed me into the fountain ( thanks danny )
and dear deeana smudge my face with chocolate ice cream all over my face.
end up qoinq to the stall with the sememek face.
decided to chanqe clothes. im so qlad that i brinq extra shirt in case of emerqency.
hehs. omel sprayed water aqain with the water host.
mcm firefiqhter plak tu budak ! =)
im so in loved with nor hikmah family.
cik idris qave me 2o dollar , mama did the same too.
mak qave me a surprise by buyinq me a cake and had small celebration at the stall.
ayah wished me early in the morninq.
abq ajan msq me and wished me.
he surely had a qood lanquaqe command on enqlish.
im so amazed by the way he msq.
haaa. simple azzy konon ! =)
now very tired. chattinq with izzudin , ziela and waitinq fer yan msq.
yan told me that theres marchinq practice for him.
i bet abq ayie was told to do that too.
hehs. been one week since abq ayie was inside the camp.
hopefully he is doinq fine inside.
ill keep on prayinq then.
happy birthday to me ! =)

2008-06-14T21:54:00.003+08:00

another tirinq day had passed.
so quick.
as usual , had a lot of fun at the stall with all of them.
but didnt knw what happen , i turn to moody all of a sudden.
jyeah. now im chattinq with aicaca or whatever larh ! haaa. susa btol ah adek2 nie.
just now i heard some news about abq ayie. AT LAST. hehs.
okay , ferst of all , sorry if i kept talkinq about abq ayie in every post of mine but this is
because i do spent some quality time with him durinq this few mths thus he do play some
important role in my life. everyone in norhikmah's family is loved by me alryte. =))
especially he did become a qood brother in advicinq stuff etc.
in the morninq heard cik idris said that abq ayie was not cuminq as he still feel letharqic
maybe due to the traininq probably. abq ajan talk to us sayinq that abq ayie was somehow affected when
he havetha eat alone at there. maybe , he hasnt make fwens yet.
yea , i feel a sudden sadness. ksian abq ayie , dalarh perot die lau mkn lmbt slalu masok anqin.
adoii ! i hope cepat larh abq aku yq satu tu dpat kwn so ble jqak die berteman. tklarh lonely sqt.
must be a complete boredom for him kn ? haiyaaa.
okay i knw , i may sound like very the aunty2 but i cnt stop this feelinq. im t0o worried about everythinq.
i wished that there is some vacancy as a cleaner ke ape kt camp die.
so i can werk there and at the very least i can see him.
then i can see hows he doinq. whether hes fine or not.
but i simply cant , i just can sit down here doinq ntq.
haaa. i hope my prayers would do some effect on him.
whatever it is , takecare abq !

2008-06-13T23:04:00.002+08:00

yesterday was damn tirinq.
didnt even have the time to bloq.
qo home late as my mum have to accomplished some of her job at norhikmah's stall before she headed home.
thus , i end up qo home late and unable to bloq.
today was my father's birthday.
happy birthday to you ayah ! hehs. buy him a shirt at central. hope he do like it.
today was the friday the thirteen.
abq ajan keep sayinq it is an auspicious date.
but too bad , today most of us were moody.
i knw abq ajan was tryinq damn hard to menceriakan suasana.
so thoughtful. heees.
i heard that abq ayie will be cuminq back today.
was so the happy. but didnt knw whether its true not. heees.
im still wonderinq , hows he doinq there.
can he adapt to the places over there ? does he qot friends there ? jyeah , i may sound so the makcik2 , but i cant stop thinkinq.
ill continue to pray for him then tonight.
kn hari friday lau berdoa lebih afdhal right ? heees.
now chanttinq with ziela and danny.
the craziest couple. =)
eh danny ! kwanq asam ah kau. btol ah tu bdak.
zie , i hope u will be fine and no more duqaan aqain okay fer you ?
4 more days to my birthday but i didnt like it for some reason.
ill end it here. cepat benar nyer da empat hari abq ayie msk ns. =)

2008-06-11T19:59:00.002+08:00

so today was still the same. wake up extra early today. hehs.
reached norhikmahs stall and then follow my aunty to Singapore National Eye Centre.
she went there to check her eye which is not on good condition i thinkk.
whatever it is , i hope she would be fine and no operation will be done on her. insyaallah.
after that , went to chinatown to buy some goods.
went back to the stall because its lunchtime and its my job to help kak wei's with her duty.
it was super fun. hehs. with irah around.
at 2.30 , i decided to eat nasi qorenq kampunq which is cooked by abq ajan.
it was nice but sumhow i do miss abq ayie's one.
im okay with the absence of abq ayie already. it just that , sometimes i do miss his presence at the kitchen.
no on is dancinq when im washinq the dishes. hehs. but its okay. ill qet to meet him aqain i hope.
today , nothinq much happen. it went off well like the other day.
i wonder how abq ayie miqht be doinq inside.
does his leq still in pain ? can he sleep well inside ? can he wake up early in the morninq ?
how does he look with the botak hairstyle on it ? yea shyt. i've qot lotsa question in my mind.
mel must be wonderinq about her beloved abq tenqek tu confirm.
i understand how abq ayie meant to her because i felt that way too.
but life havetha move on , and i believe he would be fine at jalan bahar with many people thinkinq and wishinq him all the best always.
as what i promised , yesterday i prayed for him and all my beloved people and i will keep on prayinq yea ?
so ill end it here. 2 days since abq aiye qo ns. =))

2008-06-10T20:42:00.003+08:00

it was super tirinq and hot today. wth.
today as per usual , i wake up early in the morninq.

but luckily mak was very thoughful , she wake me up a lil bit later at 6.3o.

hees. im so happy to be able to sleep a lil bit longer.

but she bang the door so the loud in order to make me wake up.

reached norhikmah's stall doinq ntq because no customer.

until 8 plus i think , abq ayie msq mel.

say stuff like takecare and study hard because he qoinq to ns today at 10am to be specific.

it was sucha saddeninq thinq. the worst.

mak decided to asked we to call him.

abq ayie just woke up je kite da call.

menqqanqqu btol ye ? hees. mak face turn red tryinq to control tears. mel as usual was so emotional.

we each take turn to talk to him.

it was my super turn next. lotsa thinq to say but end up say the same thinq aqain and aqain.

hawa was so the useless eh ? haiyaaa.

when i received the siqnal that im qoinq to cry , i quickly pass the phone kt mel.

im sucha crybaby , i knw. but im born to be so the sensitive.

msq him all that after hunq up the phone.

i cant bear to msq in this kinda situation so i decided to end the msq.

it was sucha hard thinq.

mak cook asam pedas ikan pari but her beloved son wasnt there.

hope that abq ayie would be fine whenever he is now.

ill be prayinq then. takecare abq. =)

2008-06-09T21:16:00.002+08:00

today was such a qreat day to beqin with.

wake up as early as 5.45. check my hp fer any call or msq.

but sadly there wasnt any.

sleep fer few minutes and then off to bath.

its was always sucha pleasure to wake up and think bout the fun im qonna have at norhikmah's stall. it was sucha weird thinq , seeinq the clock ticks to 9am but theres no abq ayie.

usually , he wud cum at 9am. and it brighten up my day to see him came with a biq smile on it.

but just now , he wasnt there at all.

theres no one dancinq behind the kitchen , theres no one qoinq to wear the banquet apron anymore , no one 'operatinq' the chicken , no one tryinq to imitate chris brown , no one sittinq beside me with his psp , no one sinqinq every sonq on the radio , no one qoinq to cook the nasi qorenq kampunq same as him and to put it simple , abq ayie just couldnt be replace by anyone. i knw he havetha serve ns but nie kn lumrah hidop , bile kite da used to dqn orq tu and if suddenly havetha be apart , mestilarh sedih kn. my mom had the sad face all the way till she reached our van. i bet she will miss her anak tu badly. i was so the happy that the baju is muat. that thinq cause me to stress every sec of my life till the present was qiven.

diana , i bet u knw that right ? hees

now listeninq to cinta dlm hati abq ayie version.

cute larh ye suare nyer. =)

i hope his leq would recover soon.

whenever u are , i promise ure will always be in my prayers.

abq ayie , qeqerl rindu larh abq nanti.