tuesday blues

Im not sure of why but today is just another moody day. I dont feel like doing anything much. I just feel like venting out my feelings. I guess.. today is my PMS day. I can feel it badly. Please, I beg you PMS, do behave yourself, because you're affecting my whole life now. So please leave quickly if you can. I dont need you to come around and destroy my daily routine. :((

With <3,
Hawa

LOVE.LOVE.LOVE

Woohoooooo. Like thousands of years not here only! heehee.
Alright testing testing. Assalamualaikum all.
I've got many updates I shall tell. Ups and downs. Happy and sad. Anger and disappointment.
Well, thats basically life aint it true?
Okay, where should i start? I think the major thing that has happened in my life..
I'm attached, Alhamdulilah, been 9 months. Not that long but still a reason for me to smile each time day in and day out. The main source of my happiness. Needless to say, I'm so happy. (:
Urm, to be honest, I'm not a good girlfriend YET, so been trying to improve on it. Eventually this is my first relationship anyway. heehee.
So, holiday starts, children ended their semester. The saddes part is for sure those K2s graduating to primary one. I hope for nothing but the best for them. (:
All right then, end it here for today. night lovelies. <3

:)

its been real long la people.
Im here once again. :)
Okay since im super duper free with ntg to do, i'll just update this poor lil blog here.
There's been real Ups and Downs this few mths and I meant it.
But as well, Allah has never given up on me.
Constantly helping me to go through the obstacles.
Alright work is super tiring and fun at the same time.
Graduation Concert for them is done! :)
They did a good job and its a memorable moment for me to see them on the stage.
Everything is done, sch left with few more days and its kinda sad you know.
They will be moving on to next level and forget abt me soooooon. :(
But yea, I believe they will do me proud yo! heeee.
I cant wait for the hols! lets party everydayyyyyyyyyyy. :)
Goodnight world, lemme see ya in a brand new day tmr.

reflection through the day. :)

I've finally make time for blogging. okay, its been a freaking longgg time since I click to this blogger link.
Im super busy. First of all, I've made it to tp in my fav course, alhamdulilah. A dream comes true. So, precisely thats what I'm busy with.

Alright off to next theme for the day. Life.
It may seem short, how I complained daily. that I dont have time for this and that.
I said that time pass so fast, and at times, I let time pass by me just like that.
Wasted it without second thought. While for others, it a whole different story.
Some of them fight for every second of their life. And its a painful experience.
Life was about emotions to me. At times I'm happy, at times I'll get cranky, at times I'll get sad.
Every mixture here and there.
As for today, I encountered happiness stage. I went to my cousin's wedding and it was sucha happy moment.
everyone laughing, hugging and all seems to enjoy it. I felt good seeing them.
And another happy note to add on, Im so happy to see my cousins having a family of their own. taking care of their children. Wasnt that a great thing to have? Embracing those innocent children.

But I move on from happiness to sadness and to agony.
I met my uncle.
The moment when I stepped into the house, I could smell all kind of sanitizer and medicine.
More like a hospital rather than a house.
I move nearly to him. He was lying down there on the bed, which looks exactly like those in hospital.
He was there, trying to fight for every breath. He needs the machine to help him.
Instantly, I could not believe it.
Few months ago, I saw him standing strong in front of me. Laughing & smiling.
Now, all I could see is the new him which looks different.
All skin and bone left with different wire on his body.
Every single action he does, pain him and I could remember vividly.
I wish I could help but I just stand there helplessly and offers him my prayer.
Thats open up my eyes to appreciate life as it is.

And for you dearest uncle, this is for you.

I hope that the warm springs will shelter you
& I pray that in time will heal and better you
Dont let the darkness swallow you
Come out to play so the sun can shine for you
-extracted from young xs song.
May Allah protects you always.

So long everyone. Out. :)

remember this? awesomeness. its been 2 years & i believe that Ayie's gonna complete his NS soon. I miss the old NorHikmah's family. wahh wahh. many memories today.

good morning worldddddddddddd!

oh hehehe. it should be good afternoon.
but i still feel it as morning thingy now.
today is sunday, it feels so good. im not sure why.
but im glad it is doing good. no depression moment.
however, it going to get hard sooner or later i believe.
yesterday i stumped upon an article about Haw Par Villa.
I feel so sad reading it. Im thinking, should I change my job from being
a teacher to a historian? hehehe. awesomenesssssssssssss!
My mum birthday coming up. I cant wait for it.
Okay I will make this a short and sweet post.
Bye everyone! I love love yaaaa!
:)

friday the 9th

Today was a nice day, it was Friday, what more could I ask for right?
It was my twins' birthday. Happy Birthday to you, Jovee & Jolyn!
U dont need me to mention it anymore, U know that I love you guys. :)
Another factor, I tender. Its been hell thinking about this.
Crossing each day from the calendar, counting down my last day.
It feels like I'm going to be dead and thus the counting down is a must.
It feels so sad. I will feel handicapped without you all. but like what i told you guys.
Anywhere or whatever you guys doing, U know you got me to support u always.
Thanks for being the Wonderkids to a Wonderteacher kay? I love love you all. :)
For the rest of my day, I spent it with dearest at Long John Silver, talk a lil bit.
I love you dear, & I thank Allah for getting me the chance to know you. hehehe
Read this, its for you..... ;)
So, I will update ya soonnnnnnnnnnnnn!
Goodnight reader, see you tmr world! :)

hello everyone, im back to this cyber world!
I got alot of things to say out.
Many, some left forgotten, some are just not meant to be said.
first of all, I get it into Temasek Poly, eventhough its part time course,
im still glad to Allah for giving me this awesome chance again.
Im gonna do my IELTS exam soon. Wish me the best loves!
Weekend was awesome, it really was.
Let me summarised it.
Saturday, 28th March 10, out with dearest bestfriend.
Head to Town & do lotsa talking. really, alot means really alot.
Hehehe. It was super fun. I love her for being her always.
At times, I know I dont need many friends because I can depend on her.
At times, I know that she replaces the space that left for my future boyfriend.
However, I know im straight. :)
Today, 28th March 10, out with dearest family to Haw Par Villa & Mount Faber.
I can remember the good old days that I used to go Haw Par Villa, was a moment of happiness.
But now, I felt sad to see the state the place is now. Why? I questioned myself.
However, Im still happy to be able to reminisce the good old days. :)
Off to Mount Faber & then boat quay. & then... Woodlands. heheheh. so many places.
I enjoyed myself & now i wanna sleep.
Night all! :)

Its quite irritating at times when I on my dearest laptop but I didnt have any slightest idea on what to do.
Oh well, Hello to everyone. Guess I've not blog for almost a month plus. Im super busy, Im dead serious in it.
Hehe. Tuition, working & dealing with the kids. I miss you all, kids. Teacher will be back to see you this coming Monday. Well, Monday? The thought of it dawn on me that Im not that prepared for Term 2.
Im still enjoying my short & sweet one week March Holidays. hehe. Guess what I've done this one week?
Urm, basically, I go back to class-nothing unusual about it, I go watched Dear John with dearest Darshni, Out with darling gf, catching those pathetic little crabs and well, I go work at my Uncle's shop. That what I've been doing for more than 2 years. I hate to admit it, but the little shop gives me all the good & memories I needed in my life. The sweetest moment started off from there and I admit, I do complaints- 'I dont want to work here, I hate it.' However, when I stop to think about all the moments, I do love working there. Its like an eye-opener, I learnt many stuff. & nevertheless, thats the place that I met someone whom I listed one of the special people I met & 'fall' in love too. hehehe. Thinking about it, I still have the photo you gave me before your enlistment. Throwing it is like throwing half of my soul away too. But I move on from there, no worries. I'll pray for your happiness alright? Do be a good daddy, I want to see that. :)
Everything is good in my life, I've got everything. I've got bestfriend, best colleagues, best family & of course everyone around me is good. Im thankful to Allah for that. Alhamdulilah.
But somehow, can He bless me with someone nice to be my partner?
hehehe. the one that i saw buying nasi lemak just now was good. hehehe
Chef? A good stuff though. Okay then!
Im done with my blabbering. Im out! :)

itsamondaythingybabey!

first of all, alhamdulilah to allah to the fact that my dad gets a job.
im sooo happy, only allah knows how scared i am waiting for his call whether he gets the job or not.
today is monday, but thank goodness, i didnt feel that lethargic. hehe.
i love my kids, every day is a blessing whenever i see your face, teacher hawa mean it alright?
i entered the class & they said, 'teacher hawa got a new bag?'
HOHOHO. super observant.
i wanna go swimming tmr, teacher darshni, will you go tmr with me? :)
okay hell yea, im dead tired. just reached home from teaching tuition.
okay, researching on chinese new year now.
have a nice week people! :)

i realise that i didnt blog as often as i should. however, i should realise this too.
that the fact, i didnt blog much. i feel like deleting this but theres too many memories behold it.
its going to be last day of January tomorrow.
like sooooooo fast, omg.
moving on to february. thinking about months, i realise another factor.
my kid still facing a difficulty in spelling the word "January"
urghhh, need to drill them off. get ready all of you. hehehe.
how am i this few weeks? hehe.
nursery tire me out even though its only 2 hours with them.
my beloved K2 will need more disciplinary act from me. hehe.
but still, they are superrrrrrrrrr cute!
i already applied my diploma in Seed institute. will commence in July if the application is successful.
hopefully yes! :)
oh im thinking of baking cupcakes. hehe. march holiday please come earlier! i need you.
now researching on the fact 'why spider is not an insect?'
sound so funny.
okay people, i need to rest.
super tired. bestfriend, i'll meet you again soon. :)
till then. goodnight~

imma wonderwoman.

Fourthly,Hawa, Dayah & myself.Although Hawa left us early, dear Hawa, it has been the greatest pleasure having you in my life. You made my poly days one of the best yet, and because of you I look forward to school. I love seeing how you presented, so damn cute you know!I hope to meet you soon, Hawa. I've to pour out my heart's content to you because it's been so long and so much has happened. I'm sure it's the same on your side too. I wish you well throughout your lifetime, and if you ever find yourself to be in a fix and you need someone to be there, I'll always be the one to lend you my shoulders and ears.It would be my biggest honour :)- taken from my dearest feeqah blog. SO SWEET RIGHT?! :)

alright fine, life been hectic. no words could describe it though. nursery class is a tough nut to crack.
but i'll persevere. i'll.
i learnt many things today.
if we tends to pull something too hard, it'll just break & we will lose it.
but if we were to hold it loose, it'll just fly & the consequence will still be the same.
so, we just must know our own limits.
i've been trying to hard, finding love everywhere. & it sounds so wrong.
so, how abt letting it go now & let it be the other way round.
find me baby. :)
alright, will update you guys soon.
& wait, u know what? i've got a japanese kid in my class & he's so cute. awwww. ;)
chaoooooooooo.

heres the card for that guy i mentioned in previous post. hehehe. inspired by magdalene design. :)

im a wonderwoman babey.

guess what? i feel so wrong. hehehe.
remember, i did said about doing some important task.
oh well, its not even here. i mean i wrote that down in my diary instead of blog.
yea, i 'conducted' the mission already.
okay, honestly after testing my speech with diana gf, i still couldnt said out my piece to him.
At last, my mum the one who snatched the letter/card that I've made & gave it to him.
Im like omg! What am I doing? Is it a good move or eventually no?
I was overpowered by the feeling of anxiousness. Nothing make it right.
So, guess what I do? I went shopping the whole day.
The Checklist:
1. 1 guess wallet
2. 2 clothes
3. spec for fafahbaby
4. shoe
5. fake eyelashes (many of them) (:
In a single day ONLY, i spend $120 because of the anxiety I felt.
Dumb. hehe.
After all that I wrote above, I didnt even mention whats really happening.
Okay well, here it goes.
'Daily', I used to saw this one guy whom I thought his age is 19, walking past opp my aunt's stall.
For almost a year supposingly.
& I've made a card/letter for him with the intention of passing it to him because I wants to be friends with him.
But yesterday, my precious mum who passed it to him.
& we are friends in FB.
I felt desperate for doing that, seriously. like dumb girl doing this.
But, I psycho myself , with help from Adillah, in thinking that only wonderwoman do this. HOHO.
So, the story goes from here. I dont even knows what to say next.
Just wish the best for me okay?
I love you people. :)

random post.

HOHO! ever since its christmas coming, i've got this tendency to laugh using ' hoho'.

Okay, its been a long period of time since i update this precious blog.
anyway, as if people do read my blog. hehe.

alright, today had a chat through offline msges with this guy whom i treat like my small bro.

I know he must be in a confused state & i know how he felt.

but one thing! hoho. he said that i could be a counsellor. thanks for that praise. hehehehe.

all i have to say, strive hard nazri. i know i'll see you end up in poly even if you go through this route. :)

theres my conver with him. read it up.

time for big school

Remember the last worksheet that I've done with all of you?
it called time for big school. & i remembered how i said, this going to take a longer time to finish.
but yet, its seem to be so fast. today is the last day for the term.
the last day all of my precious K2 going to their pre-sch lesson.
Im going to pray that all of you will soon grow up to be a useful person esp to the society & your family of course.
I wasnt looking for this day to come. Yes, I admit it was nice to have a half day, to have the class playing & dressing up nicely just now. But, I still prefer to see you sitting in front of me, asking question with those blur faces, at times make me angry till I can cried & wanted to leave everything at that moment & lastly seeing you singing & dancing in class. That would be better than seeing all of you having your last lesson with me just now.

The last song u were singing touched my heart deep deep.
'Sha lala, Sha lala take my school bag giong home.'
'Say goodbye to teacher, goodbye to my friends.'
'See you no more teacher hawa.'

AWWW. so saddddd! when at usual time i always heard you said 'see you tmr teacher hawa'

Please, do keep in touch. Im so happy to be able to teach all of you for my first batch of student.
hopefully i'll be able to see you guys around soon.
I LOVE YOU K2 DIAMOND 1 & 2. :)

i was wondering, which one should I start first? The sad or the happy moments?
After a long time pondering, I supposingly thinks that I had enough of all those sad memories.
Lets move on with the happpy moments.
Im so happy to see my kids everyday, every second of my life.
The innocent faces makes me feel at ease everytime.
Yea, there are times that I felt I wanted to let go of the job, I wanted to scream my head off.
However, they repeatedly give me the strength and the joy whenever I felt low or tends to give up.
Why all of you are so sweet to me? Hehe.
K2 Diamond 1 & 2, i love you so much.
I still can remember what Willy told me earlier on,

MY CONVERSATION WITH WILLY.
' Teacher Hawa, next year when I go Pri 1, I will come here at 1pm to visit you can?'
I smiled, and he continued ' Teacher Hawa, why you got one dimple? I got 2.'
I laughed. He never failed to make me smile.

graduation concert coming, hope I can really do my utmost best for it. hehe.
im tired but at the same time happy to see all of your smiles loves.
goodnightttttt people. get well soon teacher kailing, i love you. :)

random but meaningful just for you.

i wont say much but to you: dengarkan aku, ku merindukanmu. :(

The first thing that I could think of when I woke up last few days is him.
Why should I still bother to think abt him?
Why should I still feel breathless whenever my mind were full of you?
Why should I still keep the photo that you gave me?
& why should I ever believed in the first place that you will not changed?
Now, it seems to be clear. You have changed, and that broke my heart.
I didnt know why I just couldnt put your photo aside when I knew the fact
that you belong to someone else now.
Remember the time when I used to sit beside you and do nothing else except seeing you
play with your PSP? The time when we used to exchange meaningful glance & smile?
The song that you used to sing for me?
Do you know that whenever you felt hurt, I used to feel it too?
But still, Im wishing you all the best for your future relationship.
You gonna do it well. :)
Im not acting noble, it still hurt when I have to say this out but you should knw this love,
whenever you are happy, im happy too. & that applies to this.
Thanks for all the care, concern, love & memories. I appreciate it.
This is for you, I love you & takecaree.

awaiting to see my kids today & when i saw them, they were full of excitement.
the excitement in them makes me smile for the whole day despite all the tiring day i've experienced.
the kids wont be able to read this post but still i want to express my greatest THANK YOU to all of you.
the gift all of you gave me is really priceless.
I LOVE YOU KIDS.
now i knw how good the feeling is.
okee, off now. i need my rest.
will post the pic & video soon. :)
the quote for today that i get from the net : 'Teaching is the profession that teaches all the other profession'.
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL. hee.