MY NAME IS NUR HAWA

not working, not doing e learning, not in any mood.
wth hawa?!
yesterday send mum to her workplace. felt extremely bad for asking her to restu my decision to quit sch.
so being nice to her was what i can do to make up for the things i've done.
i helped her do her work. cook mee rebus, mee siam, tahu goreng.
then ard 11.30 off i go. i cant stand it, i hurt her too much.
thought of going bck to sengkang.
instead of taking train which will takes ard 2o min, i took bus no 8o which tooks ard 1 hr.
walking aimlessly. didnt knw whats my next step.
sat at the library & off to meet ain. because today her sis birthday.
so pass her the present & watch jgn tegur. maut pe ain?
hahaha. i watch that show & here i am with this puffy eyes. I COULDNT SLEEP. wth.
kau nye pasal ahh kasi aku tgok cite hantu kan takble tdo skrg.
currently chatting with her now. online pagi nah cik kak? hee.
oh well i love this part.

Julia Roberts says:
hahah
diam eh
jgn smpi aku hanta amirah dtg ruma rembat kau
hahah

klakaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. meh ahh, brani pe? hahaha.


can everything goes back as per normal? i love you mum & doing this to you wasnt in my list at all.
SORRY.

GOOOOOOOOD DAY.

FIRST & FOREMOST PEOPLE. lets do this alright?

HAPPY EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY AKIMMM OI.

may all your wishes cum true, & may Allah grant what you want in life.

do well in life alright? thats it then. im done with it ! (:

oh wait, this picture looks nice & better lahh wlpon typical. heee.

oke, lets proceed. today's communication was sooo hard.

im sooo tired.

well i go out early in the morning to meet dayah at wdls library.

work all the way till 4 i think.

damn hard..

gosh, & i didnt even do my stuff now do u knw that?

sch getting hard & grades been hell for me.

but for shure people, i will bounce back i told you.

hahaha.

doing ntg currently, just chatting with izwan, fana & zielaaa.

ohh well. im going off now. RJ not done. night people ! :)

i love you diana. heee. asal tak online?

& dont worry too much dayah. soon all will be oke, insyaallah.

first & foremost, thanks khai !

THANKS FOR THE CHOCOLATE CAKE. (:

aku suke ahh pic kau gini, mcm lawa gitu hair kau. heee

i was reallly sooooooooo touched with what he has done.

he bake a chocolate cake for me which taste superb i swear.

thanks for making my day. kau lah kawan baik aku. hees.

oke move on..
today e learning was..
no comment.
maybe im not used to it yet.
i was sooo panicking like ' omg, omg. what should i do? goshh. '
but then, im move on & now im like.. 'whatever'
hahaha. oke.
im done with ppt & werksheet.
off i go now. takecaree people
oh well, i love you guys. dayah, feeqah, fana, diana, ayn. (:

state of mind

i wasnt hoping for this.
i wasnt hoping to breaks my mum's heart.
i wasnt even hoping to go on a cry routine everyday & having a restless night.
that wasnt me.
its the hardest thing i have to do now. can someone like understand me please?
I didnt do this on purpose thou.
i will regret this, i knw it.
but the main idea is, where should i head? where should i go?
whatever it is mum, im sorry.

sing me a happy song please

i miss you dayah & feeqah.
only god knw. how i cry each time when i think on the decision im making & how it going to affect our friendship. whatever it is, thanks for being the greatest friends.
after going through this difficult moment, I think I need a time out really.
exhausted. my eyes look damn awful. & thanks for the comment fidtriaaa.
i didnt cry because of him, i cried because of the decision im making my dear.
ohh well, do pray for me people that its going to a smooth sailing process.
thanks diana,farhana & akiim for going thru this. i appreciate it. thanks

disappointment.
isnt that what u guys might be thinking abt me?
what u want to be right now hawa?
unemployed?
get married?
wth am i thinking right now?
i dont need anyone to critise me anymore, because i had enough
i just need someone to walk side by side accompanying me through this toughest decision im making.

love. <3

2oth june.

okeeee, here's update to all. (:
before i proceed, here my biggest thanks to all of you who making it possible on saturday. I LOVE YOU ALL
saturday was a kinda birthday celebration for my eighteen birthday & a reunion. it was a hell lotsa fun.
i've great time, take note of this diana. hahaha. the event manager for saturday outing. heee
ohhh ohhh, sorry to HannahOgy & SitiFaz for being late.
but we did much more better than si akiim tu uhhh. die lgi peh lambat.
ohh well, move on.
we ate at sakura thai restaurant, which is expensive to me.
but, thanks lot for the treat, the ice cream thingy. sooo terkejot when krg bwk tu icecream sehhh. hee
& thanks for the birthday wish & song. heee. kecoh sak satu sakura, krg nye pasal ahhh. (:
i will update the pics at night. using the sch laptop now.
oh well, another 4 days akiim da 18. legal age pe? hahahaha.
random. alright, will continue later oke? (:

lalalalalalalala~

im happy today. i told mum that. & she told me this ' gerl mmg slalu happy pe, ape beza nye?' translation: ' you are always happy, whats the different?' ohh pleaseee, when im sad i didnt show u what. hahahaha.
im happy because tmr is friday. oh yeaaa. thats the way i love it. its gonna be weekends again.
that sound better right? oke fine.. here's the list i wanna say thanks too.
dearest mum & dad(ILOVEYOUBOTH)
siti farhana bte md k (:
deeana (:
he die ah loves
feeqah darling
sairi(iloveyoutoonsboy,thanks)
widiah
ziela baby
dominic the guardian angel (:
Izwan the kind hearted guy
mama norisha & cik idris
dearest abg ajan&abg ayie
adie the genius boy
eugene 4n1
along& the siblings
angahyati&eddy
nurulain (:
weiling sweetheart
yaya & bob
jade & comel (:
iikin loves (:
liiyahh independent (:
pakbusu & mak busu
............& so on
there's more.. but i cant do it larrr.
hahaha. but!
TO E35P THANK YOU !!!!
HERE'S MY HEARTFELT THANKS.. HEEE.
im so glas that i met them in my life.
im sooooooooooo touched. really.
omg, its like a dream.
THANKS CLASS FOR THE SURPRISE.
THANKS DEEANA FOR THE EXPENSIVE PERFUME.
THANKS DAYAH FOR THE KEYCHAIN.
THANKS CAIYUN FOR THE DIARY.
THANKS KAK NURUL FOR THE NOVEL.
& LASTLY THANKS IZWAN FOR THE TEDDY BEAR. (:
APPRECIATE IT GUYS.
oke then, end it here. night guys.
i love you die-ah & feeqah. heee. (:
ohhh, you too fana bmk. haha

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

THANKS E35P. & I KNW THIS WAS MAG'S DESIGN. THANKS LOVE. (:

oke, shall update abt the rest of the part tmr. im soooooooooooo tired. really.

but to whoever.. THANKS. will say it all out in tmr post..

oh well, HAPPY EIGHTEEN BDAY TO MYSELF. HEEE.

night all. (:

saturday blues

im soooooo in love with taufik batisah.
oke,random sungguh..
today was oke. didnt have much comment on it.
i used to enjoy saturday. everytime, i looked forward to working on saturday.
because, the reason would be that i can meet abg ayie & abg ajan.
saturday is always more relaxing than the weekdays so whole lot of us will sat dwn together & talked.
laugh until cry. but, theres no more.
how i wish, i could still do that.
well, i could always do that with abg ajan.. which currently im still doing.
but not with ayie. are we drifting apart?
i knw u wont bother anymore to read this & wont even read it but..
its oke.. i just hope you will be happy with your life as a firefighter.
i miss so many people in a day. i miss dayah, feeqah,diana bmy, fana, ziela, khai, ogy, siti & many larrrrrr..
im being too emotional i guess. im off now. night all.

lifeeeeee~

TODAY IS ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY FOR NORHIKMAH'S STALL.
yesssssssssssssssssssssssss ! (:
it do meant alot for me, after all this stall undergo lotsa ups & dwn.
nearly closed it down few months ago due to some reason.. but now it standing strong.
U make me proud baby.
& today it was CIK IDRIS BIRTHDAY ! hee.
i knw you are not feeling that good today but whatever it is, enjoy your superb day.
gerl doakan yg terbaik for cik idris alright?
DONE.. next would be..

Oke, today was hectic. Laughing all the way with abg ajan.. He sucha genius. kept on giving me words which seems so pelik for me. & yeaaa, i lose. example of the qns: WHAT IS ENNUI?
can you like knw what it is? hahahah. dang, i dont evn knw.
mel came to the stall, sat dwn with her & have a nice talk.. after quarelling with her for few weeks or perhaps going to be months, this is the first time we began to talk to each other nicely & have fun back.
i miss you honestly & it seems great thing to be on the right track again.
just now, was soooooooooooo embarrassing. when i was making my way out from masjid after solat zohor, i fell dwn. then someone said ' tgok abg hensem sgt sampai jatoh ke?'
goshhh, i hate that guy for goodness sake. nvm..
so in conclusion, today was fun eventhou it was hectic due to many customer today.
im done with this post. (:

loves.

feeqah&dayah the sweetheart. zie, theres up & dwn in our friendship. i ought to say this to you, i love you very much. i really do appreciate our fwenship alot. & all the best for you ngn net alright? heee. study hard, jgn ingt kawin je beb. (:

secondary 3. & how nerdy i looks like. i miss this moment thou. (:

ONLY GODS KNW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU DEE.

beloved classmated with mr.choo, the maths teacher. heee


THATS ALL FOR NOW. (:

1st June 2009

its been months since i updated this blog. & yeaa, plain lazy i supposed.
many things had happened & guess there's alot to tell.
slowly yeaa.
On 2oth april, sch started. First day was alright. I had fun in class, sitting beside Hidayah who turn up to be my bestie in E35P. Wonderful girl.. & yeaaa. after one month++ in rp, I made few good friends. Some to be mention is of course, Hidayah, Feeqah, Izwan, Ivan & Mag. sweet bunch of people.
I gone thru alot in this one mth, the up & dwn of life. & for standing strong all this while, i ought to say million of thanks to you syg. To Diana, I love you.. Thanks for being there when I called you crying helplessly. U made me felt better and motivated to go on. Thanks for the call everytime when I reached home. I do appreciate it, really. oke, enough abt sch life. Its holiday baby. I ought to cherish every moment of it. heee. (:

shall mention now all abt the april babies..
TO BELOVED ZIELA, HAPPY BELATED EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY SYG.. 3 YEARS EH? HEEE.
TO KHAI SWEETHEART, HAPPY BELATED EIGTHEEN BIRTHDAY.. thanks for coming to sch with me. do it again alright?
TO OGY THE HANDSOME GUY, HAPPY BELATED EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO !
HANNAH, HAPPY BELATED SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY.. HEE. UR SO UNLUCKY TO GET OGY SEHH. (:
TO SITI ERNA, HAPPY BELATED EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY.. I MISS YOU UHH BEB.
oke done with the fwen bday list. (:
ohhh yeaaa. lastly..
TO MY BELOVED MUM, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!!!!
DONE. heee.
next..

oke, theres more to tell but shall delay all that.
next post then i will talk abt the rest of the issue.
As for today, I began to work again.
dang.. I miss those moment. I miss all the people there.
I miss wan trip, abg ajan, mama norishah, cik idris, that cute abg & many moreeee lerrr.
& theres tmr. im so exciteddddddddd. (:
however, im sad too.
Ah tong, my china fwen working as cleaner at my workplace get fired and were told to go back to China tmr.
IM SO SAD TO HEAR THAT.
he's a one amazing guy, polite & always smiling.
I was looking forward to see him daily again but theres no more chance.
to Ah tong, do takecaree & i will miss you soooooooo much.
oke before im off from here.
some word to share: MAN UTD THE BEST. NO MATTER WHAT PEOPLE SAID. (:
night readers.