reflection through the day. :)

I've finally make time for blogging. okay, its been a freaking longgg time since I click to this blogger link.
Im super busy. First of all, I've made it to tp in my fav course, alhamdulilah. A dream comes true. So, precisely thats what I'm busy with.

Alright off to next theme for the day. Life.
It may seem short, how I complained daily. that I dont have time for this and that.
I said that time pass so fast, and at times, I let time pass by me just like that.
Wasted it without second thought. While for others, it a whole different story.
Some of them fight for every second of their life. And its a painful experience.
Life was about emotions to me. At times I'm happy, at times I'll get cranky, at times I'll get sad.
Every mixture here and there.
As for today, I encountered happiness stage. I went to my cousin's wedding and it was sucha happy moment.
everyone laughing, hugging and all seems to enjoy it. I felt good seeing them.
And another happy note to add on, Im so happy to see my cousins having a family of their own. taking care of their children. Wasnt that a great thing to have? Embracing those innocent children.

But I move on from happiness to sadness and to agony.
I met my uncle.
The moment when I stepped into the house, I could smell all kind of sanitizer and medicine.
More like a hospital rather than a house.
I move nearly to him. He was lying down there on the bed, which looks exactly like those in hospital.
He was there, trying to fight for every breath. He needs the machine to help him.
Instantly, I could not believe it.
Few months ago, I saw him standing strong in front of me. Laughing & smiling.
Now, all I could see is the new him which looks different.
All skin and bone left with different wire on his body.
Every single action he does, pain him and I could remember vividly.
I wish I could help but I just stand there helplessly and offers him my prayer.
Thats open up my eyes to appreciate life as it is.

And for you dearest uncle, this is for you.

I hope that the warm springs will shelter you
& I pray that in time will heal and better you
Dont let the darkness swallow you
Come out to play so the sun can shine for you
-extracted from young xs song.
May Allah protects you always.

So long everyone. Out. :)